my weekend strategy

I had a pretty good weekend. I went over by about 150 calories on Friday, BUT I'm okay with it since I still tried super hard and I was starving by the end of the night so I let myself have some ham and cheese so I wouldn't go to bed miserable. It was a night out with friends and since I didn't have many calories to spend, I tried to be careful. I did sort of impulsively have a watermelon agua fresca at the art show we went to, but I reigned myself back in afterward. I didn't have the free (well, donation-suggested) beer I was originally planning on.  We did all go to a bar at the end of the night and I only drank a grapefruit flavored vodka with soda. I kept perusing the menu half-wishing I could have some fried food but I remained resolute.

Overall, I made some healthier choices over the weekend that I am proud of. I let myself splurge on things that were worth splurging on. The Sunday brunch at Urban Eats had much more "worth-it" food than the Saturday breakfast at House of Pies, so I'm glad I ate the croissant and the brie and the mimosa at the former and had a basic, healthy plate at the latter.

I'm about a week and a day away from the 4 week mark. I will be weighting myself every 2nd Tuesday of the month. I'm a little scared to. I feel like I'm making a just-right amount of change. And if I only see a 2 pound loss over the past month, I'm afraid of feeling like "fuck this shit" and go back to pigging out every day. But hell, even if I only lost 2 pounds a month... over a year, that would be 24 pounds lost! Which is better than gaining 30 by eating in my default way (pigging out every day).  So even if I only lose 2 pounds a month - I'm going to try to be cool with that.

I'm feeling confident about this strategy of eating strictly within my 1,840 calorie allotment Monday through Friday and then on the weekend not tracking, but just trying to make some healthier choices where I can and then splurging in a thoughtful way. I like the break I get and the freedom I feel. Weekends have always been hard for me. Eating at a calorie deficit for 5 out of 7 days has got to make a difference, I'm thinking. And over time I can decide to push it out to 6 days and maybe even 7 eventually as I get stronger.

weight loss affirmations

Argh!!  I didn't hit the 50 pound milestone that I expected to at my weigh-in today!  I'm annoyed but not defeated.  These past two weeks have been very successful in terms of staying within my points, making healthy choices and getting in my activity, so that is all that matters.  I'm headed in the right direction.  Yay!

I'm exactly at 49 pounds lost.  I lost 1.2 pounds over the past 2 weeks.  I dunno what happened, but I'm sure my next weigh-in will bring a sizable drop. (And if not, I will not freak out!  I promise that to myself!)

I created a list of affirmations that I've been meaning to print out and pin onto my wall in the bathroom, or maybe put it in a large Ziploc bag and hang it in the shower.  I want to say these affirmations out loud every day.  Being a member of Lakewood Church, I am a big believer in stuff like this.  Even the Buddha said "The mind is everything.  What you think, you become."

I've a had lifetime of telling myself negative things.  I have a lot of positive thinking to do in order to outweigh the bad stuff!

So here are my affirmations.  Feel free to copy and manipulate them to your liking.  I won't be offended if you take out the God stuff :)  I hope they help someone out there.

The only thing that stands in my way is ME.

I will never EVER, EVER give up on my dreams.  Even if I keep falling, I will keep getting back up every time.

I am a warrior.  I enjoy this challenge.  I will fight to the death.  God has armed with strength for this battle.

It’s not “what if…” or “will I..?” I create my own future.  I make the choices.  I am the one responsible for the quality of my life.

I have resurrection power inside me.  I will not put any limits on God.

I don’t have to be perfect, just persistent.  It’s ok to have ups and downs.

I have am well equipped to all God’s called me to do.

I refuse to abuse my body any further.  Today I commit to treat it with love, respect, and gratitude.

I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.

Today I will be good to myself.  I will create my own happiness.  I will believe in my own power.  I will inspire someone.

I choose life over death.  I choose freedom over bondage.  I choose love over hatred.  I choose joy and hope over fear.

Nothing will stop me from reaching my goals.  God will give me a fresh supply of strength each day.

I am made for more than this excuse for a life I've been living.  I am made to rise up, do battle with my issues and, using the Lord’s strength in me, defeat them – spiritually, physically, and mentally – to the glory of God.

I might get knocked down but I WILL NOT stay down.

I will come out of this stronger.  What was meant for my harm will be to my advantage.

I am committed.  I am strong.  I am capable.  I am focused.  I am determined.  I am healthy.  I am beautiful.  I am more than a conqueror.  I am blessed.  I am favored.  I am powerful. 

I love myself.  I love to move.  I love eating nutritious foods.  I love to be good to my body.

I am worth it.  I deserve to be happy.  I deserve and am capable of success.  My future is getting brighter and brighter.